46°F, light rain, light wind I guess since my world as I knew it had come crashing down, I was stuck in a kind of mental limbo of doing only what I needed to survive. Roof over my head. Food in my belly. Work. A few people asked me what my plans for the futureContinueContinue reading “Unfreezing Mentally”
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Dear Dad, It’s our dog’s birthday today.
https://videopress.com/v/TjJDB2X6?resizeToParent=true&cover=true&preloadContent=metadata&useAverageColor=true It is fitting that Rider and I are saying goodbye to your ashes today, at the end of a frightening and disparaging year. It’s also Rider’s 2nd birthday (he was born, as you may recall, about 30 minutes before the end of the year.) You had been so excited for this pup. To pickContinueContinue reading “Dear Dad, It’s our dog’s birthday today.”
Seed Starting and Tree Pruning Prep
46°, mostly cloudy, showers, 103.22” rain so far this year I did end up laying landscape pavers over my muddy path yesterday. They were free pavers and they do the job even though they are a bit wonky. I got tired of sinking to my ankles in mud when stepping out of my camper. AndContinueContinue reading “Seed Starting and Tree Pruning Prep”
Grief and Seeds
It’s no secret to anyone in my circle that I’ve been grieving a lot this year. The loss of family, the loss of a homestead and everything I put my hopes for the future in. I’ve been betrayed and abused and if it weren’t for very close friends I would have been homeless. That wouldContinueContinue reading “Grief and Seeds”
Worn out!
Rain, 46 °, slight breeze I’ve been trying to do acts of kindness, to get out of my self isolation from the grief from this year. But now I’m really worn out! I’ve done some good things, but now I need to pull it back a little as I’m finding no energy left over forContinueContinue reading “Worn out!”
Can I Trust This?
I’ve heard it before. “You can live here as long as you want.” Usually comes when someone realizes how useful to them I am. “Help take care of so and so” “Till death do us part” “Help to buy this land” “Help maintain this place, develop it” It’s from people I once respected and gaveContinueContinue reading “Can I Trust This?”
Surviving Narcissistic Abuse: A Daughter’s Story of Protection and Loss
Trigger Warning! This post contains disturbing content dealing with abuse and death. Please don’t read farther if it is a difficult topic for you. Before I get much farther into this blog, let me warn you. I am in the process of grieving. I had been trying to protect Dad from my mother for nearContinueContinue reading “Surviving Narcissistic Abuse: A Daughter’s Story of Protection and Loss”
Climate Wary Homesteader 